Because God Has A Better Way

I am pissed, lonely and I really need you. :(

Kerana Mati Itu Sudah Pasti

Pray for MH370, MH17 and Gaza.

It could be anyone of us.

Everything You Know Is Just A Lie

Hello, my name is Arrogance. I am a liar. I said nasty things, I'm selfish and people opinions are not really matter to me. I am well known to be quick to anger. You think you really know me? Think again, because I don't even really know myself.

Life's sucks.

The same old Madihah

To whom it may concern.

I am not yet perfect, though effort I do make,

I am simply human,

The Imperfection.

I am sorry.

Hi. :)

Just a reminder to myself, to keep going, be strong. And remember that Allah will always be there. :)

Nothing much.

Last post aku masa 2011.

Dan hari ni adalah 27 May 2013.

Aku just nak cakap, yang aku tengah sedih. Sedih sangat sangat. :(

Far away

 L..


"Sitting on a plane
Reminiscing back when I made that mistake
I wish it never ended with a heartbreak
Now your heart broken, tears in ya face
Ask myself why, looking at the sky
If I could turn back I’d make it all right
Praying that you better but its still stormy weather
Don’t wanna let go but the rain wont let up
Now you gone, still thinking bout you everyday
And I know feelings was hurt and you can blame me but
I’m sorry for the games that I played
But now it’s too late
And now she’s…

 Now she’s far far away
And I’d do anything just to see her face
But she’s far far away
Walk a thousand miles just to see her smile again.."

Bila dah terlalu tak ada kerja kat office

Sekarang pukul 3:20 petang tak sabar nak pukul 5 boleh balik. Hari-hari duduk office sampai nak demam aku flu jangan cakaplah bersin tak habis-habis. Pergi site ada lah dalam 2 minggu sekali? Ergh cepatlah habis intern lagi 3 minggu je tapi lepas intern cuti sabtu ahad je Isnin dah start kuliah? Ergh PSM 1 menanti damn!

Boss tak ada siap aku boleh update blog. :p

I'm really looking forward for hari raya now and nothing else matter tho. Future planning for new semester? Study hard (azam baru setiap sem) and should I/shouldn't I join Varsity Boat Race 2011? Berbelah bahagi dow. 

Okay nak sambung buat buku log. Bye.

//Selamat menyambut Ramadhan, pejam celik pejam celik dah 11 hari berpuasa kan. :)

Truth to be told

I miss you.

And I hate myself for missing you.

But I do.

What happened to us.

I know that is dead, but I miss you.

We were so close, 

so close.

And now we are so far apart.

And it's all over.

I get it.

It's just difficult.

I'll just keep beating myself up.

I have nothing left to believe in.

&& I just don't know what to do anymore.

Nicely said

Siapa kata sejarah tak mungkin berulang?

*The medals & the trophy. They probably cost a total of ten bucks to make, but they have an endless amount of value to me. I worked so hard for them. I have them because I deserve them. The good practices behind them, and the bad ones too. I can recall the days where I cried like a baby because it hurt, and the days when I felt like I was on top of the world because I’d done it. I can recall the moment when I've been kicked out from my sit that were supposed to be mine a week before competition starts. I can recall the blood, sweat, tears, blisters, laughter, and pain that came along with them. And for each one I hold it in my hands, I know and believe that it was all worth it after all. 


*The feeling of swing, the feeling when all my crews's blade were smoothly fly in the air, the feeling of knowing I gave it my all and having it show. That feeling when my legs are about to fall off and I don’t think I could stand, but deep inside my heart know I have to because it’s not just for me anymore, it’s for MY BOAT AND MY TEAM. And that moment when my cute little coxswain yells "Kita nak menang", "Kita dah menang", "Kita nak emas" and we start to move up. And then that moment when we pass the bow ball off of the stroke seat and we move on open water and we can taste VICTORY.


*That moment when we cross the finish line before anyone else and I can’t breathe and I feel like puking and my legs remember all the pain they’ve ever been through but it’s okay, because WE DID IT. Because NOTHING HURTS ANYMORE WHEN THERE'S MEDALS AROUND YOUR NECK.

*Thank you so much to my amazing coach, Mr Azlie Abdul Jalil. He isn't just our coach, but our friend. Our good friend. He is our unofficial big brother. I hope he knows that every race we row, even IF he is no longer my coach, part of me is still doing it for him. :)

*Also to my crews, especially woman's crew. You guys are like family of sisters I've never had. Almost literally, 24/7 for a month++ with a new family. Thank you for your spirit and your support. And for those girls who are not selected in the boat especially Alia Hani Tajuddin, Syafirah Abu Samah & Wan Ling, the spirit, the strength, the in-durance of you guys are there. So keep it up and never ever give up. I bet someday you guys will be better than me, better than us! Kejayaan kami adalah kejayaan anda semua juga. I never get the opportunity to talk during the game, I just want you guys to bear in mind that no matter which boat are you in and which sit you're gonna row. What matter the most is you believe in each one of your crews and your cox. As long as you trust them, they trust you and we trust our cox, gold medal will be ours. We proved it already right? :) To my lovely cutiey cox, Ranjini. You rock the lake & the cox box! :p You guys have given me a family that no one could ever replace. 

*And and, special thanks to these one girl that are in my boats, (She's my bowman for 4+ & 8+ hebat tak hebat? :p) Razlinda Zailan, she has given me a reason to stay after every single day of training, a reason for me to wake up at 6 am everyday and she taught me a lot about patient. We always talking nonstop about Rowing with each other, ngumpat ngumpat captain perempuan kan. Opssss and we loved insulting each other to no end. And the most important is she's the one who always ask me to push harder during every 2ks or any erg workout without me get annoyed like some other crews. She's like a second mother to us all. :p 

*Terima kasih juga kepada captain lelaki, Latib Lambosi dan captain wanita, Aminnur Hayati Zaiman dan Presiden Paddlers, Mohd Zulfadli Rozali. Berbaloi bukan segala penat lelah, keringat peluh dan air mata kita selama ini? :)

Nothing is more precious than this.
Thank You Allah.


MASUM CHAMPIONSHIP OVERALL CHAMPION MAN & WOMAN
In Red - 2009 ( 5 Golds )
In Blue - 2011 ( 5 Golds & 1 Bronze )


Setiap kejayaan bermula dengan angan-angan, jadi tak salah berangan-angan kerana tiada apa yang mustahil di dunia ini. :)

Sedapkan hati

Kalau ditakdirkan esok, lusa atau suatu hari nanti, engkau pergi meninggalkan aku. 

Aku redha. :')

Ada faham?

Wa tau lu hebat

So bagi dapat emas satu senang cite lah bai!

Loser

Sampai satu tahap, aku rasa nak muntah bila dengar/sebut nama ROWING.

Things I won't never forget

BP OPEN 2011

Meeting and playing Basketball with them is one of the memorable things happened in my life. Walaupun kita kalah, yang penting aku gembira melihat semangat dari semua player. Keep up the good work guys, jangan cepat give up. Train hard, InsyaAllah one day victory will be yours. :)

Sour Ribbon

Stress out with final examination, but knowing He always be with me and having YOU around me, I'll be fine. :D

Eh terasa ke?

Today was strange

Is it healthy to never fight with someone? No texts & No calls so far. Thank you so much.

//Happy Birthday lil sister, Mahfuzah Md Saleh.

A real passion

ROWERS :

Are the strongest fastest and smartest athletes in the world. But that’s not what makes them unique. They are the MOST dedicated people in the world. They sacrifice their lives to a sport of fighting. Where practice is 3 hours of pulling and driving and sweating. 3 hours of a literal fight. 

They give up there social lives. They cant party and get drunk because getting up for practice at 6 am on Saturday won’t allow it. They cant go smoke after school cause they worked too damn hard to get into shape. They have no substitutes out on the bench to help get past an opponent. They sit on the river with all eyes on them, alone, no one to fall back on when they make a mistake, no safety to make the tackle, and no goaly to make a diving save. 

They are the leanest meanest and strongest in the world. Guys want them, GUYS want to be just like them. So this is a tribute to all those who sacrifice everything, their free time, and most importantly their life. Why would someone work so hard? Or why would they induce the blood, sweat, and tears? Or the early morning runs, or mid day workouts or the extra erg after practice. 

The road in rowing always ends in tears. The team that takes second crys cause their dreams are over, and the team that wins it all crys more than anybody because finally everything that they have worked on is finally worth while. Rowers will row  through anything because they are friggin’ rowers. And greatness walks right with the word rower. 

I salute all who commit there life to something greater, something bigger than themselves. Rowers don’t row  because they like it, you would be crazy to like to beat yourself up on a daily basis, and get beaten up by teammates and opponents just as much. Yet there are the few who love it, they do it cause they were born to. These select people I applaud. There is no future in rowing, no pro league, no million dollar contract. Just a smelly erg room and a dream to be great. 

Rowing is not a sport, its a lifestyle.