Last day of March

Lesson for today.

Learn how to appreciate people in your life.

April Fool tomorrow, kalau dekat STF ni confirm2 kena prank. Rindu sekolah.

Giving up everything

I’m so sick of being sad and not knowing why.

I’m so sick of having to worry about whether I’ll make weight or not.

I’m so sick of my TUMMY bothering me.

I’m sick of my parents teasing me to study.

I’m sick of the fucking memories that won’t leave my mind.

I’m sick of crying.

I’m sick of worrying about college.

I’m sick of this town.

I’m sick of being cold and get a real bad flu.


I'm sick of being an average person.

I’m sick of losing friends.

I’m sick of getting out of bed.

I’m sick of pretending to be okay.

I’m sick of making people mad when I don’t know what’s wrong.

I'm sick of ERGING EVERY FUCKING DAY.

I'm sick of the fact that I have to go training and PULL A 2K TEST EVERY WEEKENDS.

I’m sick of all of it.

I’m sick of people not realizing I’m pretending.

I’m sick of the feeling in my throat like I’m going to cry.

I’m sick of this.

I’m so done with this. I can’t do it anymore.

Up up here we go go

I love today's practice.

When me is running 8 rounds of track without getting tired.

If only I can feel the same on the erg....

Ce cite ce cite

Weekends is coming yeay orang lain bersantai berehat menenangkan kepala otak selepas melalui hari2 yang memenatkan, tapi aku terpaksa pergi training. Ergh terpaksa bukan bermaksud tak ikhlas cuma kadang2 bila aku perlukan rehat yang amat, tiba2 dikejutkan dengan berita training ni, aku rasa sedikit malas. Everyone has their own limit right? So I guess limit aku hampir sampai, dah paras2 hidung dah ni. Tapi haruslah berfikiran positive. 

"Be miserable. Or motivate yourself. Whatever has to be done, it's always your choice."

Kata kata perangsang untuk mulakan hari ini dan hari hari yang mendatang. Have a great weekends everyone!


*Aku terlalu busy dengan traning sampai dah kurang masa untuk spend dengan family & kawan2. Dah kurang masa nak lek lek lu sap kok lu haha. Sorry guys. :(

As much as I love Rowing

& this is how much I love ERGO. Haha.

Hong Kong Indoor Rowing Championship ; 2k open individual woman.
* Tu muka frust tengok meter masa tak dapat bawah 9. Fuck.

//Version 1. More pictures will be uploaded later. Stay tune! 

Kenyataan tidak seindah harapan dan realiti tidak seindah fantasi

Hanya percaya bahawa setiap yang berlaku pasti ada hikmah di sebaliknya.
Allah itu maha Adil dan maha Mengetahui.


Jangan menyesal dengan apa yang kita dah buat/tak dapat. Berusaha untuk dapat apa yang kita nak. Bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.


Mungkin telah banyak kali diucapkan dan didengari, tetapi sebagai peringatan. Apa salahnya bukan? Biasalah, Melayu mudah lupa. MANUSIA mudah lupa.

To be or not to be happy?

#Situasi 1
Tiba tiba dapat mewakili UTHM ke Hong Kong Indoor Rowing Championship 2011.
Respon masyarakat sekeliling :
"Wah tahniah mdy pergi HK nak baju I love HK okay"
"Congrates jangan lupa ole2 dari Hong Kong"
Aku :
Hanya tersenyum kambing dan mengganggukkan kepala. Kadang2 gelak besar.


To be or not to be happy?


#Situasi 2
Terpilih oleh Ah Beng untuk join 2K individu open woman.
Monolog dalaman :
"Walawey nak tak nak kena improve jugak 2K time aku kalau tak sia2 aku datang jauh2."
Target coach 8:53
Aku :
Mengganggukkan kepala dan tersenyum kelat.


To be happy or not to be happy?


#Situasi 3
RACE DAY 200311
Perasaan aku hanya Tuhan saja yang tahu, maklumlah first time race ergo di luar Malaysia.


#Situasi 4
Selepas menarik 2k.
Masa yang terpampang hanyalah 9:02:1. Ranking ke 5. Speechless. Ada improvement 1 saat tapi tak mencapai target diri sendiri.


TO BE OR NOT TO BE HAPPY?


Kesimpulannya, aku dapat new best time, but the best time was still not good enough. I don't know what I'm feeling now, and what should I feel. Dilemma much huh?


//Walau bagaimanapun, kami berjaya merangkul 1 emas, 1 perak & 3 gangsa! Tahniah! Malaysia boleh! UTHM boleh! :D


Back to Parit Raja, kembali menghadap buku, projek, test & assignment! Bashhaaaaaahhh!

Random saying

THE PERSON I TEXT MOST OFTEN ;

Linda Zailan <3

Walaweh

GUA ADA FRIENDLY BASKETBALLL PETANG NANTI GUA MEMANG EXCITED LEBIH SEBAB GUA RINDU GILA NAK MAIN BASKET LU FAHAM TAK WALAUPUN KASUT GUA PUNYA TAPAK MACAM DAH NAK TERCABUT TAPI APA ADA HAL LAH YANG PENTING SEMANGAT KENA ADA KALAU ADA ORANG RECORD GUA MAIN LAGI SEMANGAT KAN IHIKS OKAY BYE.

LAGI BEST HARI NI PUNYA KELAS SEMUA CANCEL OH TODAY IS HEAVEN. BAGI CAN GUA REHAT2. UNTUK ERGOMETER GUA HUTANG LU ESOK ESOK GUA BAYAR.

Dilema cinta

"Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu,

Terlambat bagiku, pergi darimu,

Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu,

Tak mudah untukku mejauh darimu"

Itu dia!

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are. :)

It has been a while

Heyhooooooooo! :D

*Haven't updated my blog for the longest time ever. Have been busy with classes, tests, training, assignments & projects. And I don't know what to update also. Okay. Will be super duper busy this whole month. Here we go.

*Today, the first week of March, me is going back to Malacca again, didn't go to dragon boat training since I won't be able to  join the event next week. Second week of March, I'm gonna be at UTM for fitness training camp? On the other hand, selection for Sea Games 2011 athletes. Well I am not really hoping on this. Just follow what they really want. Nak kitorang datang training, okay baiklah kami datang. Nak suruh main Sea Games? Oh itu tidak berapa pasti haha I got Internship on July until September and Sea Games is on November. So how am I going to cope with everything at one go? Ahah tapi belum terpilih pon lagi. :p The other week I'll be in Hong Kong for Indoor Rowing Championship. Hell yeah I was selected to join the competition and to fulfill coach requirement up to abroad level for erg is 8.29.0. Yes you can kill me now! I don't know I can do this shit or not cause I know where is my level now compared to the others. I know I am not THAT good on erg but I'm pretty sure I'll try my best and keep training. At least below 9 minutes is in my hand. SOON. :p ONLY TWO WEEKS LEFT AND I MUST GET MYSELF FIT AND KICK MY ASS OUT ON THAT FUCKING ERG EVERYDAY. Kalau orang lain boleh buat, tak kan aku tak boleh kan? Weight is not an issue sebab orang yang lagi ringan dari aku boleh dapat 8:47? Ehem. So I learned something from that. Thanks to you. I've tried so damn hard and all I need is even a slightly improvement for my own satisfaction. I need to be extra strong jyeah! ( Ditegaskan LAGI SEKALI bahawa jika anda bukan seorang pendayung, anda tidak akan faham )

**I can't wait for this erg things to end because literally I'm sick of erging and I need to fucking row! I miss the boats, the oars and the police marine place. HAHA. I promise you I'm very good on water! :p

*Tapi busy busy aku dengan Rowing ( certain time playing basketball ) pon aku still sedar yang aku masih seorang pelajar tahun 3 kejuruteraan awam dan priority aku adalah study. My future will be so messed up if I so malas malas belajar also. I may be struggling in studies but I will never give up. Now that I have decided to do whatever I want, I have to be extra smart and do the best for myself, and yes for Abah & Ibu too. I wanna prove to them wrong that even if I play sports too much and always playing around doesn't mean that I won't be able to be a successful person. I know what studies are and how important they are to me. This is one of my dream and I am not gonna waste it. I may be disappointing some people but then again, I don't wanna suffer being in a family who expects too much from me, and eventually it's affecting me in one way or another. Bertahan bertahan, just keep staying positive. I believe I can be a good athlete-student. Jangan kata tak boleh selagi belum mencuba betul tak? Jika gagal, cuba lagi. Selagi hayat dikandung badan jangan cepat berputus asa.

&& I believe my actions are all based on trying to make this world a better place to live. :)

Okay, have fun and I need to start revising too. Got MNE test on Monday. God bless us.

Assalamualaikum.